Prolonging resolution

Why do we draw out resolution? is it because we enjoy the pain? Do we need those shameful moments to feel anything at all? The present is where we are and yet we always reach back Always cling to the moments that could have been glorious if I had just said this, if I had just done that Why not aspire to new glory? Because we feel misguidedly that we can fix the past make history right and good. We aren't afraid of what we have already survived let's admit that it feels good to probe that wound, reliving those moments in new ways so that we can fix it this time. Repeat the pattern so this time we will say the thing we should have said, do the thing we should have done. Many use repetition to learn but don't sell yourself short perhaps the lesson is learned, There is no need to repeat it because it will not erase the past it will not improve your future it will hold you a prisoner to that moment that has haunted you the one you can never change no matter how hard you try. Forge on! Correct the past with the present and the future for what is done is done and it's lesson is inside you to carry you forward.